hokay, sho- on day zere was thees little tiny shwadling little cow. the freakin' end

Youth Conference was awesome! it was good to be able to get my mind off things for a while. I need to think about them though. I'm really sad. I dunno what it is lately, but i think I've turned into a jerk without knowing it. it seems like last week I have offended everyone I know. I hate it! I dunno what it is. I hate that I have to be trapped in the box that is the human. I wish I knew how to get out of it but I don't. I guess dying would do it but I'm not planning on dying until I'm old...er then I am now. I'm leaving again and it's kinda not good because I'll be sad and then the people up there will all be strange to me. I dunno. I guess I could turn into a jaguar. but then I couldn't talk to my friends, or this other person.... but it would be okay I guess. At least not very many people would miss me. I dunno where i'd go though..... this is getting too long. Sorry if I'm boring you. Talk laters

i guess it isn't that long...